Thursday, January 7, 2010

sour.

I have this neighbour who seems totally unable to say anything that isn't cheesy and disingenuous when he sees me. Stuff like, "Happy Friday!" or "Who's winning?" I know it's his way of being friendly, but really, if it was friendly, he'd know more about me than he does. Enough about that. I could go into a whole different post about my new neighbourhood, but I actually have something else I'm sour about.

I'm swamped under a pile of papers to mark. And kids ask me where their stuff is. Like, kid, it's okay for you to hand stuff in late, but I still have to turn it around in one class period or a week? Pfft! I had to explain to some of them today that the leaky pen marks some of them have on their papers are because I fell asleep. Not because their stuff bores me, but because I'm so bloody exhausted, I can't see straight at night.

My children are getting the better of me. Like no patience--cute stuff is just annoying. I swear if I hear one more whingey crying voice saying it's not fair or why do I always have to... or tattling on each other. I'll cry.

Then, it took me at least 10 times trying to lay Cally back down to get her to stay down. Yes, I still get up with her at least 3 times a night. And when I finally got her back to sleep, I turned off the bloody heater and woke her up myself. And I know I just got done telling someone this afternoon that I know she's my last one, so I don't mind...and I don't. But today it's getting the better of me.

And, I swear, is it too much to ask for me to be in a picture every once in a while? I asked Joey to snap one this evening and he launched into his normal teasing. And tonight, I didn't have it in me to take it.

Ugh.

Today, Flanders, I feel like the answer to "who's winning?" is definitely not me. So help me, I hope I'm not greeted with a "Happy Friday" tomorrow.

6 comments:

Anonymous said...

Sorry you are having a bad day. Praying for you! Lots of love - Mich :)

anna said...

Big hug from London. x

Shan said...

Oh, how I feel your anguish - and I only have one child. Already this morning Amaya has had two tantrums, and for one of them I cried with her because I was in too much pain to deal with it. And, it's only 7.38am! Recently I was really sick with a viral infection. I went to the doctor and he told me that women have to be everything - mothers, wifes, daughters, house keepers, friends, and workers. No wonder we get sick and exhausted - and a little emotional. As for the students - totally understand - just tell them in your head to get f@cked! I do it all the time and it makes be feel great! xo

norbyah said...

i wish i could say it was a bad day. it was a bad evening. i couldn't even hack it for an evening. and, i don't have to do the cooking and cleaning. what the hell would i be like if i had to live in the real world. you girls have my admiration.

Putri said...

it's okay porks. everyone has a terrible horrible no good, very bad day sometimes. don't beat yourself up. i love you so much. hang in there.

Anonymous said...

We all have our trying days. It does get better. When those days come, take some time for yourself. We don't get enough of those alone minutes or hours, you have to make the sometimes! as for your photo's Dennis now takes pictures of himself. Nothing like the arm extended pictures. One year he even put his "summer vacation" photos of himself and other together. Much love to you. M

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